Well, Im proud of myself. Yesterday, i saw my Crush outside, and we talked for a bit — like usual — and when it was time to part ways, this time, i gave him my number. He was as glad i did as i was. One text he sent me said ‘We should hang out sometime, instead of just talking on our front porches.’

For once, things are going well.

Trash pick up was late today. So, i took out the bag of leaves that i’d forgotten to put on the curb last night. Walking back to the house, i saw my crush…

We both waved from a distance — he was walking his puppy — and, as usual, i picked the little Yorkshire up, and pet him, and we talked for a little bit. As always, Im just happy to get to talk with him — period. Even if on the inside, i mostly feel all…

Then, towards the end of the convo, he told me he’s enjoying being single for now. So, of course, i feel…

Well, it’s not like he rejected me — since i havent asked if he wanted to even hang out, let alone go out, but it just sorta hit me a bit wrong.

So, i saw my next door gaybour today. I had to think of an excuse to be outside to talk to him, so i wouldnt look like a weirdo. So, i pretended to change the porch light that didnt really need it, lol. He came by, and i just felt all…



And, we talked for nearly a half an hour as we stood in the mild air, with me holding his adorable little puppy. Im really beginning to like this guy. All that keeps goin thru my mind is…



It would be nice if for once things would go right for me…